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Today I was speaking with a friend, and complaining about the mediocrity of most lives, (forget how redundant that complaint is for a moment), people go to work, come home, watch TV, or the internet, consume enough to sustain existence for another day, sleep, the wake up rinse and repeat. It all seemed terribly meaningless to me. But then I was told that was pretty much what I was doing.
I won't go into any distasteful detail, but it was a sort of shit-in-my-pants-revelation for me. I didn't actually shit my pants of course, but the turtle-head of regret did get a little air. I'd always wanted to create something more, to be something more than a simple man. It always seemed that men were so contented with themselves, happy to be just as they are, no more. I'm having a very hard time writing this now because I'd really love to write something profound and universal. So much of my life has been spent attempting to understand the nature of this world and its inhabitants, one would think I'd be able to come up with something at least witty about the way things are. Although no revelations were had here today, nor are any certain to come in the future, I think I'll begin again with baby steps. No more will I attempt to pull back the curtain of reality with a four paragraph blog written at the whim of a pensive, lonely, yet strikingly handsome young man. If I have any thoughts that last longer than a fart's charm in the future, I'll try and put them up simply, without all the pretense of it being Revelation II: Revenge of the Fallen.

Anyway, I've always had this paranoid feeling that I'm not fully understood, or really even remotely so. It would probably help if I spoke aloud. Baby steps. In any case, like any person I want to be known, (Not globally mind you), just known (not Biblically either... Well actually, that would be fun, but I'd have to get to know her first, not "know"...er, you know what I mean). So being truly known can at least allow me to finally be worshipped as a towering pillar of flaming awesome, or finally recognized as the truest debasement of humanity ever to excrete it's putrescence upon the blessed firmament of the Earth.
Only time will tell.

ssɐ ʎɯ ɟo ʇno

Expectation without eventual satisfaction is just intolerable. Not to say that one would have any measure of expectation regarding any words of mine, but either way, I said I'd write something. I've started a handful of posts on various subjects, all pending completion. On a jog I was on not half an hour ago, I saw a dead bird on the side of the road and thought, "I really ought to write something-because well, I have a blog, and there's a dead bird." The point is things really come together when you have the right motivation.
On occasion, (all the time) I wonder to myself what the point 0f all this is, reality, existence, the whole taco grande. It was once said, by someone really smart I'll say, that life cannot be understood and lived at the same time. One has to be an outside party to understand a system objectively. Unfortunately for me, I am still a human being and still a part of that system. But, as any one who knows me can attest, my human qualities are negligible.
We humans, we're born, we grow up, we die. What of it? To assume purpose to our existence is to assume a governing power or authority which has the right to say what ought to be. Yet, if all is merely the clockwork of the forces, then what are we? Merely conveyances for our genes to pass on to the next generation. If we are only flesh and bone, protein and lipid, where do we go from here?
Let me start over. I'm a firm believer that there's a reality beyond what our perceptions present us. If you remove all subjective perspectives, all people from the universe, it would be just as it was (except people of course). But then again, perhaps human consciousness is collapsing the wave function of existence, so maybe if people disappeared, the universe would revert back to possibilities... anyway. Existentialism and quantum mechanics aside, the world can be understood.
Logic, reason, the scientific method, these have shown us our world has governing laws. It is because of the reliability of these laws that we can produce the tools and technology for our ever-advancing society. So what if human behavior also had a set of laws? What if we had a prescribed order? Only, unlike natural laws, we can choose to disobey ours. If gravity just said "fuck it" one day I wonder how things would progress. Obvious references to God, or some metaphysical governing intelligence aside, our ability to think has made us the kings of the world, no matter what manner of kings we are.
Strange to think that although our ability to think and reason has brought us so far, yet the gift of mind is so ubiquitously frowned upon, at least in the U.S., where Larry the Cable guy holds the public's attention better than ..well, anything remotely intelligent. With the populous dumbed down to cro-magnon levels and sedated by 24-hour entertainment, the powers that be can do pretty much what they want, sans interference from the common man. Then again, taking another look at the common man, maybe the elites are right. It is difficult to see the true value of a single human being when one is reduced to such a shadow of their true potential. Then again, aren't we all shadows of our potential? Oh boy....
I'm sorry to say, that I think I forced this one out like a constipated weasel. (Give me a break. I dare you to come up with a better simile. I'm on a time-budget here.) No matter the quality, if such a word can be used to describe what I just blew all over this page, at least some thing was posted.
"Something of increbible depth and profundity will replace this sentence at some point in the future."

Where to begin.

I've been torturing myself this last week attempting to find a suitable topic for my first real post. It hasn't gone well. I've plenty of things to talk about, but I wanted to start out with something really important, something to evoke real thought and contemplation, something to make me sound brilliant. Honestly, its terribly disconcerting having such a plethora of thoughts fly through one's mind while away from the keyboard only to have them drift away like a fart in the wind when its time to put them into words.
Then again, that also brings to mind the real validity of me having a blog in the first place. So many voices in the ether; what's the point of one more? Do I really have anything new or useful to say? Evidently I think so, otherwise this blog wouldn't have started. So I must have some innate connection to some arcane source of knowledge and wisdom to which no others are privy, or I'm just a pretentious ass. Time will tell.
As I have no ability whatsoever to decide what to wax philosophical about, I'll appeal to your judgment (that means you, the poor sap reading this). As I'm already realizing, I really didn't want to start the blog like this, in the mediocre meta-post way. Alas, I'm new at this. Give a guy a break. Of the few ideas I have cage-matching each other in my head a few stand out.
-The nature of knowledge and of being right. The importance of discernment and judgment.
-Human weakness & frailty. The folly of pride & how it destroys relationships.
-Why are things so screwed up? Or are they?
-Eggs. Good or bad?
-How can the mechanical, deterministic understanding of reality through conventional physics coexist with the swirly, probabilistic theory of reality of quantum mechanics, and how can we find room for human freedom and will within that framework?
-Political Correctness & Other BullShit. Gateways to duckspeak and other forms of passive social control.
-Why they want us dumb. American education and the future of our democracy.
-The consolidation of power, wealth, and influence. Why revolutions come again and again.
-The point of no return. Technological power consolidaton. No more revolutions.
-Ron Paul. ....(maybe I better put this higher on the list)
-Why it might be a good idea to become more self-reliant and go live in a cave for a while.
-Why I killed that guy. (a fictional story. Honest!)
-War, what is it good for? Well, that depends on what you consider 'good'.
-The cyclical nature of trends, social preferences, & economics. Why the bullshit will never end.
-The ultimate answer to life, the universe, and everything. (Readers of THGTTG need not read this post)

There you have it, but a few ideas I've been molesting in my brain of late. If you think any of these ideas sound remotely interesting or have something much better in mind, please let me know. I need more practice.

So I had this idea.

It wouldn't be the first time the idea struck me, like a sock full of quarters in the face, but it would be the time that somehow brought me the will to execute it. Of the things people want in life, I've found that being known is pretty high on the list. No, not "known" in the biblical sense, but then again thats probably also pretty high on the list now that I think about it. Fluid exchange aside, the real necessity to be understood by even one other person is a great source of comfort. Of course ever fully knowing another is impossible, not to mention knowing ourselves is probably more so. Nevertheless, one can try!
And that, dear friends, is what I intend to do right here on these pixels before you. Being terribly quiet in company, unless properly greased by the blessed tonic of boozy goodness, I rarely spew forth the churning madness just behind these lips. Simply, I want my dear friends to know me, and for me in turn to know them. (Not biblically, of course (unless of course... nevermind))
So in the forthcoming weeks and months, much of my "mind" shall be poured upon the pages of this here site, and stuff shall be said. Oh, such stuff! Man, these opening posts are boring as crap.